| Summer and what it's left me with. |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|01:23 pm] |
It's been an awesome summer. Ryan and I got to spend a lot of time together and I got an internship done (6 credit hours woot). Most importantly, I found out that I can graduate early (December 2006). This next semester I will be taking 19 credit hours...so I won't be talking to anyone, hehe, just kidding. I'll probably take a break from livejournal.
I'm really excited about this pilates class I'm taking twice a week. Hopefully that will take some of the stress away. Ryan and I are planning trips to see eachother this next semester...every 3-4 weeks. He will be busy with his job (law enforcement liason) and also his publication regarding the peaks of Flagstaff and I will be busy with school and planning after-grad work.
I haven't decided yet whether I will go into nursing school or try to get a job at a station. I do know that I will have to make a resume tape before graduation. I only made one package while at the internship...I was doing a TON of VO/SOTs. So yeh.
Ryan's wisdom teeth were pulled out on Friday. To my surprise, he did great! The first 5 hours of bleeding were frustrating for both of us. It was grit and bare it....but then the bleeding stopped and he was doing fine. The most frustrating thing for him is the diet. He doesn't like the soft diet too much. hahaha. Anyways, we ended up driving to Kalispell to spend time with the family. As usual we all had a great time and I really feel like part of the family.
Tomorrow is Ryan's birthday. I got him a great present or two. Vicki and Kent will come visit on Wednesday for his birthday. Then Thursday we leave after work to head to Phoenix. We'll be stopping in Flag briefly to have drinks with friends. Saturday will be a chill day in Phoenix with my family and Sunday, Ryan flys back to Helena. :-(
We're both going to be missin eachother a lot! This long distance thing...that I've been opposed to in the past... should be very strengthening for our relationship. More than anything it will just help with our communication. We have learned a lot about eachother and I feel like we are closer every day. I am very happy with our decision to begin dating back in February. For once, I didn't screw up! He's someone to be proud of and support and he's a true best friend. God has blessed both of us greatly. |
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| Who freakin' reads this anyway! |
[Jul. 20th, 2006|05:29 pm] |
I'm sitting at the station right now. Most of the stories are done and I have nothing to do for like 3 hours....ugh. This weekend Seth is coming to visit and we're going camping and fishing. It's Corey's last week as the weekend sports anchor here at beartooth NBC so we're all going out tomorrow night. It's definitely been a change for me. Living here in Montana and working all the time. I'm way tired most of the time but I have my best friend and love here to keep me company.
When we get bored, we just wrestle or something. Haha! We are retardedly in love. It's awesome. Tonight Ryan and Jon are going to meet with our (hopefully) future landlord and sign papers. I can't wait! The house is so cute and it's in a great neighborhood. Plus, I won't have a 30 minute drive every morning. Even though I'm going to be leaving in a little over a month, I'm really excited for the move. I need to take more pictures of everything!!! That way I can remember it for the 3 months I'm in Flagstaff.
Oh, I'm trying to graduate early. I have to try and take a journalism course to substitute for JLS 440C. Sommerness is helping me but I'm just a little worried about it. I'm just praying that God will just continue with his plan for me. So far, I've been really lucky and His plan has been clear. I also need to figure out if I want to work after I graduate or immediately go into Nursing. Haven't quite decided.
Oh, a couple days ago the photographer at my work (MT Dept. of Commerce) gave me 12 rolls of film for free. FREE! They're like 8 dollars each! I'm seriously so excited! I'm going to go crazy taking pictures of awesomeness.
Hm, other than that I've just been chillin' and thinking about my life, my love, and excited the two together.
PS. Who reads my journal? That way I know who I can and can't talk crap about...j/k Hahahahaha but seriously? |
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| The Rings |
[Jul. 7th, 2006|03:32 pm] |
PS. Ryan brought me back two pretty sweet gifts from Sth Korea.
1) Awesome white dangly earrings that were handmade by a small Korean woman.
2) A ring. We both have matching white gold rings that have our names engraved in them in Korean. Mine has little cubic z's on it but otherwise looks identical to Ryan's. Oh and also on mine the inside says, "Ryan- heart -Brooke" in Korean and on his it says "Brooke-heart-Ryan"
It's a Korean tradition to get matching rings if you've been dating for 100 days and it looks to be serious. Soooo yeh. I love them. It was a very thoughtful gift. |
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| Montana |
[Jul. 7th, 2006|03:18 pm] |
Montana is awesome! I'm at my internship right now. Plus, I have a job working for the Department of Commerce. We're moving into a new place in a week or two. Tomorrow is Saturday and Ryan is taking me bow fishing. Should be pretty cool. Our weekends are spent at the lake or cabin or just outside. I'm trying to graduate early but I'm not sure if I can pull it off....we'll see.
To keep in touch...just give me a call. I've got my cell phone with me. Miss everyone a ton. Happy Summer! |
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| Isn't it funny? |
[Jun. 6th, 2006|10:25 pm] |
I was in Flagstaff today. I left last night and stayed with Brit. Work needed me. Like almost all of my jobs. It is always hard to take a break from it without someone needing me. I can't help it. I love working. I know I'm good at what I do. When I'm good at something, I enjoy it.
Work was fun. It was nice to be in the office for a while. On my way to work I passed by the road that led to Tim's old house. It was weird really. This time last year we would've been outside gardening or something. For some reason, my stomach flipped a couple times. The thought of that whole relationship just doesn't sit right with me. What the heck happened?
First, start off by saying that this is not a rant of oh how I miss my ex or wow, I want to be with him. It was not meant to be. Period. I don't want to sound mean in any way but I can't understand how we ended up in a relationship. I wasn't looking for anything serious. Now that I think about it. In my own way I do care about him. I hope for the best in his life but there is something very off in my heart/belly that just kicks when I think of him. It was fun for awhile but then I felt very sad and empty.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. A Christian cannot be in a relationship with a non-Christian. Believe me, even if you really want to make it work, it won't happen. There is something very special about Ryan and I. We talk about our faith and we share our thoughts about God, who He is and what He wants for us and how we can glorify Him. It is so calming to know that I always have someone who shares that with me. Someone I love very much can be part of my fellowship and celebrate joy in Christ.
We understand that when we say we love each other, we know what we're saying. From experience, some people don't know what love is to me. They hurt or they are just confused and sometimes they back away afraid of the thought. That isn't love. It's not. I've gone on rants about it before. Still, there is so much to learn and to grow into. I cannot wait! This is very exciting. I love Ryan! I don't care who knows it. I can't wait to see him even if he's just around the corner. (He's in South Korea--err well on his way out of Sth Korea) He has made my life more rich, exciting, and joyful. I am truly blessed! God saw a need and filled it with a perfect fit. Love, love, Love. |
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| It's been too long |
[May. 27th, 2006|02:16 pm] |
Ah, livejournal. You used to be a way to keep my friends updated. Now I don't know. I guess you are my diary. I've been posting for years now. Didn't think I'd still be posting now. It's weird really. Just weird.
Well, let's see. I'm in Phoenix for a couple more weeks. Ryan is in South Korea. The wedding in Spokane was beautiful and I met Jenny, Michelle, Willie, Freddie, Katy, Travis, Travis' wife Jenny, and Jessie. All of Ryan's friends are nice and friendly. So far, I've been having a great time.
Kalispell is beautiful. It's green and it has a really cute downtown. It's Ryan's hometown. His house reminds me of our old house in Seattle. They have two dogs, toby and deuce. It's a one story with a basement. Ryan and Sarah's rooms are in the basement with the entertainment room. Ryan's room is just incredible. When we got home...at 2 am (long story) I couldn't help but smile at the pictures on the walls and all the baseball collectibles.
He is by far the cutest most lovable, incredible guy I've ever dated. Pictures of him with his hunting "prizes" and fishing with family. He is just so cute. Oh, and the facial expression he made in one of them...I could just see him in high school. It makes me laugh a little. Just cute.
We spent some time with Kent and Vicki, his parents. We saw his aunt and uncle's house (huge but beautiful). We spent time with Grandma Phyllis eating cookies and talking. We even had a couple beers with his cousin Kyle and his wife Darcy. All this time I can't help but think how much we were meant for each other.
His family knows it and so does mine. We are in love.
Home with my Mom, I haven't done a whole lot. Saw X-men last night and I hung out with a few old friends on Monday. Ryan calls every other day and we also keep in touch through email. It sounds like he's having a really good time. I'm so glad because he deserves it. I just can't wait until we get to Helena and I can start my internship.
I need to be busy! I'm dying of boredom!!! Haha. Anyways, that's my update. |
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| Things to do...and things done. |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|01:22 pm] |
Write investigative feature on facebook
Rewrite courthouse story on Serrano
Develop 4 rolls of film
Create photoshop slide show of FEET!
Study for Media Programming test
Take Bio online quiz.
Bio lab presentation
Study for finals
Get Ryan a graduation present and card
Train a replacement for the Summer
Find a place to live.
Get present for Andrea. ??? Vibrator, handcuffs...j/k
I have...
photographed feet
finished MOST of my assignments
bought my ticket from Spokane to Phx
Registered for field work class over summer for internship
Found general doctor for the summer in helena
Called a few places for rent in helena
.....so on and so forth |
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| Nothing but LOVE |
[Apr. 18th, 2006|03:08 pm] |
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Had a great Easter, spent time with family, Ryan got to meet my Dad and his family and also my Godparents, we hung out with Poops, and got home in time to get some sleep. Today I get to sign up for my apartment in Mckay with Shannon!!! YAY! So stoked. Relay For Life on Friday, Bake Sale on Saturday, Culinary Festival on Sunday, Montana in a month. Could I be more excited? Not if I'm in love!! |
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| Generally, I am filled with the Joy of Christ |
[Apr. 8th, 2006|11:36 am] |
Soooo maybe an update?
Got back from Florida...I love my G-ma. She is exactly as I'd hoped she'd be. Hopefully, I will see her again soon.
Went to Shannon's bro's wedding. What a hoot that was! I love Shannon. I love her because she is real. She is fun, loving, and honest. When she's upset with me, she just says 'hey, I'm upset with you about...' and it's so awesome. I love our friendship! That's like the biggest reason I don't have that many close friends. Most people don't have the guts to tell me when they are upset with me...aka the handful of girls in Campbell. I'm not upset with them so I'm just going to let them boil in their own anger.
Ah Shannon, you truly have made my life richer indeed.
Ryan and I went to Havasupai. It was beautiful and I couldn't help but think of all the people that haven't experienced it. Seriously, it's only 10 miles down and 10 miles out....it's worth it! Not only was it nice to be away from the stress of school and work and Campbell but it was also nice to spend time with Ryan. Seriously, you are tired and dirty and hungry and thirsty. If you still cherish the time you are with that person...that's special. My favorite part was when we hiked into Mooney falls. It pushed me passed my fear...I'm scared of heights. I made a risky move climbing down to the bottom but it was worth it. Soo amazing.
Biggest news!! I got the internship in Helena! I will learn how to edit, write, shoot, announce, and produce packages!!! Pretty much everything I want to do when I grow up. This is really a blessing because Ryan and I were hoping that I could come up to Montana for the summer because I have another year at NAU...which means we would be away from each other a lot. I'm not worried about that. I just can't wait to see Montana. I also can't wait to meet his family. It's just falling together nicely.
I don't know what I can say to explain how I feel. Mostly excited, partly curious, partly in awe, partly selfish, partly proud. Ryan and I are great...pretty incredible. But honestly, I do worry about Ryan and his friends. We want to spend time together. We also want to spend time with our friends. I think we have tried very hard to accomplish that but I wonder how they feel. I know Brit and Shannon don't mind. They know that Ryan is the best thing that could've happened to me and they love him for that. I don't really know how any of his friends feel. Some say I shouldn't care...but I do. I really like all of them. I like hanging out with them. Matt O is hilarious. I love when he just comes into the room singing worship songs. Eddie is so sweet and honest. I appreciate him allowing me to use his life for one of my feature stories. Crystal is so much fun! I like when she sings 'My Humps' and her sarcastic comments that just crack me up. She is so motivated and so successful. Tracy is my journalism buddy. We share the same opinions of some of the people in the class and very much enjoy sharing them. Matt E. is a sweetheart! Going to Sedona so he could apply for pink jeep tours was a blast. Ah, and he and his girlfriend are so cute. Sarah, Hope and Shannon are so awesome. I am always glad to see close friends like that with their bball boy crushes and inside jokes. Amy is freakin awesome. She's very confident and fun to be around. She's also a great model, haha. And Andrea, she was the first girl to talk to me in the group. She is the first person I really connected with. She'll be married soon and leave...just like my leslie, but I am happy for her. She'll be a great wife and mom. That night we went out to the bars..and to boardwalk, I really had a good time.
I enjoy being around that group because I know how much Ryan appreciates their friendship. So do I. I love when he tells me stories about the past few years. I know my close knit group of friends(my boys) will always have a place in my heart and they played a huge part in my life...almost making up a part of me. I guess your friends help you learn about yourself.
ANYWAYS, after a huge tangent of the group...I am glad I met them. I'll be honest, it was awkward at first because I didn't know anyone and then I was embarassed. It was worth it. Just to meet Ryan, literally the best thing in my life (Besides Jesus). All this time... I wonder how we never crossed paths before. |
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| The tan goddess says... |
[Mar. 22nd, 2006|11:02 pm] |
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I have been out in the sun EVERY DAY!!! I love it love it love it! It's beautiful here and my grandma is sooooooo much cooler than your grandma. She makes me laugh with all of her comments on life, love, and death. She's amazing! Incredible! So far, I've been fishing, drinking, beaching, sleeping, pubbing, and classy cocktailing...hmmm tomorrow shopping and dancing. It's amazing. AND I get to come home on Friday, go to a wedding and a brunch, and then scoot my way back up to Flagstaff and see Ryan. I could not be more lucky. |
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[Mar. 13th, 2006|06:09 pm] |
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Sometimes...I'm so happy I could burst! |
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| That's Life!! |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|11:32 am] |
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Almost died in a car fire, lost a bunch of stuff, stressed out, crazy about Ryan, excited for spring break, a little anxious about the Grand Canyon trip, lost in college school work, thankful for my friends, in love with my family...Thankful for God's hand in my life. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2006|04:44 pm] |
15 minutes left of work and all I can think to do is write about my life. So far, so good. I just got back from Phoenix yesterday. We really had a great time. My little sister is in Colorado on her church winter camp. I'm really hoping she has a good time. Man, I must say, when we went to church on Sunday and I walked into the youth room, my heart broke. They had taken down all the old pics of all of us from past winter camps. I felt like I was just another past youth leader. Depression set in for a second but then I remembered that I'm still talking to all my old girls. I STILL have a small impact in their lives. I'm not just any old youth leader. I'm a big sister to them. Although I might not be the best role model in the world, I feel that I still challenge them to be great.
Silently, I am inspired by the people around me. Lives changing daily. Roles played out in perfection. Fathers, sisters, brothers, friends, secretaries, mothers, boyfriends. It's a beautiful thing. I can't understand how there are so many people that look at the world like it was made to torture them. It's all about how you look at things. Well, I know there's a lot of crap I've been through. There's a lot of crap I've done. I've learned and it has brought me this far. I don't see myself in a bad place. In fact, I'm pretty sure...this is where I'm supposed to be. I'm not saying I'll never feel pain again because that is a part of life. I'm just not going to be afraid or focused on every bad experience I encounter. |
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| Sigh |
[Feb. 6th, 2006|08:31 pm] |
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers.
Studying with two hot water bags around my lower belly. I'm sippin on some echinacia and listening to some calming country. I'm thinking about life and what I'm going to do about it. Life's too short to sit around accepting your life for what it is. I keep thinking about all the things I want to do. Sometimes in Bio 181 I feel like it's overwhelming but then I think about baby Katelynn and her tiny chest fighting against the breathing machine...I realize that it's all worth it. If I want to do something, consider it done. My biggest dreams are yet to begin. Crazy how that works out. |
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| Superbowl Sunday |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|06:57 pm] |
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Still waiting for the Seahawks to win this thing....while studying. |
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| A Great Night |
[Feb. 2nd, 2006|02:11 am] |
Something tells me I'm in to something good.
No class til 12:45 tomorrow, YES! |
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[Jan. 29th, 2006|12:01 am] |
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It just gets better and better doesn't it? Ha! How's that for sarcasm? |
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| Bound to shoot myself in the face... |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|11:59 am] |
| [ | I'm Feeling |
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| | CALL ON ME---Eric Prydz | ] |
Busy as all hell. Trying to be a student, worker, president, AURH rep, Treasurer, and friend. Not a good time to think about who i am or what the future holds for me. Must delegate starting tomorrow night and finishing Sunday night. Please God let residents be enthusiastic about getting involved. We have no money....ugh.
Finally got groceries yesterday, including all ingredients to make BBQ chicken pizza. Yum!
What in the world is going on? I feel very weird. I'm going to Phoenix on Friday to take my cousin down. My cousin! He comes in tonight on the train. Should be fun. I don't know. I guess I'm just taking everyday as it comes. |
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| Hahahahahaha! I love Collins |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|12:06 pm] |
Good times! Alissa and Heather got into town at 9. We went out at almost 11. Sooo fun. I got both those girls out on the dance floor. It was fantastic. Tim showed up and we talked for a bit. Then, a bunch of the guys from Taylor came and joined us. That was pretty cool. Until I developed a leash. Ugh! Every time I got up, he was right there! It was awful! Ryan, Sarah and Hope showed up but they had they're own party goin on. Still it was good to see them. I may hang out with them tonight...hopefully Andrea will be there.
Right now, my Mom's coming up to see sera and katelynn and we're getting breakfast. |
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